feel like giving up, throwing the towel. Its seems to be something that i usually do in the phases that i go through like a cycle.
i feel this cycle as if i was dancing salsa, "1 step forward, 1 step back, 1 step forward, 1 step back". i hate how i keep trying to not reach being so emo but then it just hits me like how reality slaps people in the face. From the Nissan Cube to new stuff now i have, they are just things which might boost my confidence yet here i am thinking i am going to give up on.
guess its how i think too much that led to all the problems, like my 'habits', what Chen Hui said "not taking the initiative" and being too arrogant. how can i be myself, or be who i really am? why do i seem to have a problem communicating ? do i need a professional listener? am i alright?
maybe all i ever need was you, a goal, or else i'm just wondering aimlessly, dancing salsa.
